Course in Miracles
21 - The Inner Picture
Fear To Look
The Holy Spirit will never teach you
that you are sinful; errors He will correct, but this makes no one
are indeed afraid to look within, and see the sin you think is there.
This you would not be fearful to admit. Fear in association with
sin the ego deems quite appropriate, and smiles approvingly.
- It has no
fear to let you feel ashamed.
- It doubts
not your belief and faith in sin.
temples do not shake because of this. Your
faith that sin is there but witnesses to your desire that it be
there to see. This merely seems to be the source of fear.
the ego is not alone. Its rule is tempered, and its unknown “enemy,”
Whom it cannot even see, it fears. Loudly the ego tells you not
to look inward, for if you do your eyes will light on sin, and God
will strike you blind. This you believe, and so you do not look.
Yet this is not the ego’s hidden fear, nor yours who serve
it. Loudly indeed the ego claims it is; too loudly and too often,
for underneath this constant shout and frantic proclamation, the
ego is not certain it is so. Beneath your fear to look within, because
of sin, is yet another fear, and one which makes the ego tremble.
What if you looked
within and saw no sin?
question is one the ego never asks. And you who ask it now, are
threatening the ego’s whole defensive system too seriously
for it to bother to pretend it is your friend. Those who have joined
their brothers have detached themselves from their belief that their
identity lies in the ego. A holy relationship is one in which you
join with what is part of you in truth. And your belief in sin has
been already shaken, nor are you now entirely unwilling to look
within and see it not.
still is only partial; still limited and incomplete, yet born within
you. Not wholly mad, you have been willing to look on much of your
insanity, and recognize its madness. Your faith is moving inward,
past insanity and on to reason. And what your reason tells you now,
the ego would not hear. The Holy Spirit’s purpose was accepted
by the part of your mind the ego knows not of. No more did you.
And yet this part, with which you now identify, is not afraid to
look upon itself. It knows no sin. How,
otherwise, could it have been willing to see the Holy Spirit’s
purpose as its own?
has seen your brother and recognized him perfectly since time began.
And it desired nothing but to join with him and to be free again,
as once it was. It has been waiting for the birth of freedom; the
acceptance of release to come to you. And now you recognize that
it was not the ego that joined the Holy Spirit’s purpose,
and so there must be something else. Think
not that this is madness. For this your reason tells you, and it
follows perfectly from what you have already learned.
no inconsistency in what the Holy Spirit teaches. This is the reasoning
of the sane. You have perceived the ego’s madness and not
been made afraid, because you did not choose to share in it. At
times it still deceives you. Yet in your saner moments, its ranting
strikes no terror in your hearts. For you have realized that all
the gifts it would withdraw from you, in rage at your “presumptuous”
wish to look within, you do not want. A few remaining trinkets still
seem to shine and catch your eye. Yet you would not “sell”
Heaven to have them.
And now the
ego is afraid. Yet what it hears in terror, the other part (of your
mind) hears as the sweetest music; the song it longed to hear since
first the ego came into your minds. The ego’s weakness is
its (the other part of your mind's) strength. The song of freedom,
which sings the praises of another world, brings to it hope of peace,
for it remembers Heaven. And now it sees that Heaven has come to
earth at last, from which the ego’s rule has kept it out so
long.bHeaven has come because it found a home in your relationship
on earth. And earth can hold no longer what has been given Heaven
as its own.
on each other, and remember the ego’s weakness is revealed
in both your sight. What
it would keep apart has met and joined, and looks upon the ego unafraid.
innocent of sin, follow in gladness the way to certainty. Be not
held back by fear’s insane insistence that sureness lies in
doubt. This has no meaning. What matters it to you how loudly it
is proclaimed? The senseless is not made meaningful by repetition
and by clamor. The quiet way is open. Follow it happily, and question
not what must be so.