8 - The Journey Back
the Will of God is one of the strangest beliefs that
the human mind has ever made. This could not possibly
have occurred unless the mind were already profoundly
split, making it possible for the mind to be afraid
of what it really is. It is apparent that reality cannot
"threaten" anything except illusions, since
reality can only uphold truth. The very fact that the
Will of God, which is what you are, is perceived as
fearful to you demonstrates that you are afraid of what
you are. It is not, then, the Will of God of which you
are afraid, but yours. Your will is not the ego's, and
that is why the ego is against you.
seems to be the fear of God is really only the fear
of your own reality.
impossible to learn anything consistently in a state
of panic. If the purpose of this course is to help you
learn what you are and if you have already decided that
what you are is fearful, then it must follow that you
will not learn this course. Yet you might remember that
the reason for the course is that you do not know who
If you do not know your reality, how would you know
whether it is fearful or not?
of truth and fear, which would be highly artificial
at most, is particularly inappropriate in the minds
of those who do not know what truth is. All that this
kind of association means is that you are arbitrarily
endowing something quite beyond your awareness with
something you do not want. It is evident, then, that
you are judging something of which you are totally unaware.
You have set this strange situation up so that it is
completely impossible to escape from it without a Guide
who does know what your reality is. The purpose of this
Guide is merely to remind you of what you want. He is
not attempting to force an alien will upon you. He is
merely making every possible effort, within the limits
you impose on Him, to re-establish your own will in
imprisoned your will in your unconscious, where it remains
available but cannot help you. When we said that the
Holy Spirit's function is to sort out the true from
the false in your unconscious, we meant that He has
the power to look into what you have hidden and perceive
the Will of God there. His perception of this Will can
make it real to you because He is in your mind and therefore
He is your reality. If, then, His perception of your
mind brings its reality to you, He is teaching you what
source of fear in this whole process can only be what
you think you lose. Yet it is only what the Holy Spirit
sees that you can possibly have. We have emphasized
many times that the Holy Spirit will never call upon
you to sacrifice anything. But if you ask the sacrifice
of reality of yourself, the Holy Spirit must remind
you that this is not God's Will because it is not yours.
is no difference between your will and God's.
did not have split minds, you would recognize that willing
is salvation because it is communication. It is impossible
to communicate in alien tongues. You and your Creator
can communicate through creation because that, and only
that, is your joint Will.
wills do not communicate because they speak for different
things to the same mind. This loses the ability to communicate
simply because confused communication does not mean
anything. A message cannot be said to be communicated
unless it makes sense. How sensible can your messages
be when you ask for what you do not want? Yet as long
as you are afraid of your will, this is precisely what
you will ask for. You may insist that the Holy Spirit
does not answer you, but it might be wiser to consider
the kind of asker you are.
not ask only for what you want. This is solely because
you are afraid you might receive it, and you would.
That is really why you persist in asking the teacher
who could not possibly teach you your will. Of him you
can never learn it, and this gives you the illusion
of safety. Yet you cannot be safe from truth but only
in it. Reality is the only safety. Your will is your
salvation because it is the same as God's. The separation
is nothing more than the belief that it is different.
can believe that its will is stronger than God's. If,
then, a mind believes that its will is different from
His, it can only decide either that there is no God
or that God's Will is fearful. The former accounts for
the atheist and the latter for the martyr.
Martyrdom takes many
forms, the category including all doctrines which
hold that God demands sacrifices of any kind. Either
basic type of insane decision will induce panic, because
the atheist believes he is alone, and the martyr believes
that God is crucifying him. Both really fear abandonment
and retaliation, but the atheist is more reactive
against abandonment and the martyr against retaliation.
The atheist maintains that God has left him, but he
does not care. He will, however, become very fearful,
and hence very angry, if anyone suggests that God has
not left him. The martyr, on the other hand, is more
aware of guilt, and believing that punishment is inevitable,
attempts to teach himself to like it.
The truth is, very simply,
that no one wants either abandonment or retaliation.
Many people seek both, but it is still true that they
do not want them. Can
you ask the Holy Spirit for "gifts" such as
these and actually expect to receive them? He cannot
make you want something you do not want. When you ask
the Universal Giver for what you do not want, you are
asking for what cannot be given because it was never
created. It was never created because it was never your
will for you.
everyone must remember the Will of God because ultimately
everyone must recognize himself. This recognition is
the recognition that his will and God's are one. In
the presence of truth, there are no unbelievers and
no sacrifices. In the security of reality, fear is totally
meaningless. To deny what is can only seem to be fearful.
Fear cannot be real without a cause, and God is the
only Cause. God is Love, and you do want Him. This is
your will. Ask for this and you will be answered because
you will be asking only for what belongs to you.
ask the Holy Spirit for what would hurt you, He cannot
answer because nothing can hurt you and so you are asking
for nothing. Any desire which stems from the ego is
a desire for nothing and to ask for it is not a request.
It is merely a denial in the form of a request. The
Holy Spirit is not concerned with form at all, being
aware only of meaning. The ego cannot ask the Holy Spirit
for anything because there is complete communication
failure between them. Yet you can ask for everything
of the Holy Spirit because your requests are real, being
of your will. Would the Holy Spirit deny the Will of
God? And could He fail to recognize it in His Sons?
energy which you withdraw from creation you expend on
fear. This is not because your energy is limited but
because you have limited it. You do not recognize the
enormous waste of energy which you expend in denying
truth. What would you say of someone who persisted in
attempting the impossible, believing that to achieve
it is success? The belief that you must have the impossible
in order to be happy is totally at variance with the
principle of creation. God could not will that happiness
depended on what you could never have.
fact that God is love does not require belief, but it
does require acceptance. It is indeed possible for you
to deny facts, although it is impossible for you to
change them. If you hold your hands over your eyes,
you will not see, because you are interfering with the
laws of seeing. If you deny love, you will not know
it, because your cooperation is the law of its being.
You cannot change laws you did not make, and the laws
of happiness were created for you, not by you.
of any kind to deny what is are fearful, and if they
are strong, they will induce panic. Willing against
reality, though impossible, can be made into a very
persistent goal, even though you do not want it. But
consider the result of this strange decision. You are
devoting your mind to what you do not want. How real
can this devotion be? If you do not want it, it was
never created. If it was never created, it is nothing.
Can you really devote yourself to nothing?
His devotion to you created you devoted to everything
and gave you what you are devoted to. Otherwise, you
would not have been created perfect. Reality is everything,
and therefore you have everything because you are real.
You cannot make the unreal, because the absence of reality
is fearful, and fear cannot be created. As long as you
believe that fear is possible, you will not create.
Opposing orders of reality make reality meaningless,
and reality is meaning.
then, that God's Will is already possible and nothing
else will ever be. This is the simple acceptance of
reality because only this is real.
distort reality and know what it is. And if you do distort
reality, you will experience anxiety, depression, and
ultimately panic, because you are trying to make yourself
unreal. When you feel these things, do not try to look
beyond yourself for truth, for truth can only be within
is in me and where He is God must be, for Christ is
part of Him.”