Course in Miracles
18 - Dream and The Reality
The holy instant
is the result of your determination to be holy. It is the answer.
The desire and the willingness to let it come precedes its coming.
You prepare your minds for it only to the extent of recognizing
that you want it above all else. It is not necessary that you do
more; indeed, it is necessary that you realize that you cannot do
more. Do not attempt to give the Holy Spirit what He does not ask,
or you will add the ego unto Him and confuse the two. He asks but
little. It is He Who adds the greatness and the might. He joins
with you to make the holy instant far greater than you can understand.
It is your realization that you need do so little that enables Him
to give so much.
your good intentions. They are not enough. But trust implicitly
your willingness, whatever else may enter. Concentrate only on this,
and be not disturbed that shadows surround it. That is why you came.
If you could come without them, you would not need the holy instant.
Come to it not in arrogance, assuming that you must achieve the
state its coming brings with it. The miracle of the holy instant
lies in your willingness to let it be what it is. And in your willingness
for this lies also your acceptance of yourself as you were meant
never ask that you remain content with littleness, but it does require
that you be not content with less than greatness which comes not
of you. Your difficulty with the holy instant arises from your fixed
conviction that you are not worthy of it. And what is this but the
determination to be as you would make yourself? God
did not create His dwelling-place unworthy of Him, and if you believe
He cannot enter where He wills to be, you must be intefering with
His Will. You do not need the strength of willingness to come from
you, but only from His Will.
The holy instant
does not come from your little willingness alone. It is always the
result of your small willingness combined with the unlimited power
of God’s Will. You have been wrong in thinking that it is
needful to prepare yourself for Him. It is impossible to make arrogant
preparations for holiness, and not believe that it is up to you
to establish the conditions for peace. God has established them.
They do not wait upon your willingness for what they are. Your willingness
is needed only to make it possible to teach you what they are. If
you maintain you are unworthy of learning this, you are interfering
with the lesson by believing that you make the learner different.
You did not make the learner, nor can you make him different.
Would you first
make a miracle yourself, and then expect one to be made for you?
ask the question. The answer is given. Seek not to answer it, but
merely receive the answer as it is given. In preparing for the holy
instant, do not attempt to make yourself holy to be ready to receive
it. That is but to confuse your role with God’s. Atonement
cannot come to those who think that they must first atone, but only
to those who offer it nothing more than simple willingness to make
way for it. Purification is of God alone, and therefore for you.
Rather than seek to prepare yourself for Him, try to think thus:
who am host to God, am worthy of Him. He Who established His dwelling-place
in me created it as He would have it be. It is not needful that
I make it ready for Him, but only that I do not interfere with
His plan to restore to me my own awareness of my readiness, which
is eternal. I need add nothing to His plan. But to receive it,
I must be willing not to substitute my own in place of it.”
is all; add more, and you will merely take away the little that
is asked. Remember you made guilt, and that your plan for the escape
from guilt has been to bring Atonement to it and make salvation
fearful, and it is only fear that you will add, if you prepare yourself
for love. The
preparation for the holy instant belongs to Him Who gives it. Release
yourselves to Him Whose function is release. Do not assume His function
for Him. Give Him but what He asks, that you may learn how little
is your part, and how great is His.
It is this
that makes the holy instant so easy and so natural. You make it
difficult, because you insist there must be more that you need do.
And it is very hard for you to realize that it is not personally
insulting that your contribution and the Holy Spirit’s are
so extremely disproportionate. You are still convinced your understanding
is a powerful contribution to the truth, and makes it what it is.
Yet we have emphasized that you need understand nothing. Salvation
is easy just because it asks nothing that you cannot give right
that it has been your decision to make everything that is natural
and easy for you impossible. What you believe to be impossible will
be, if God so wills it, but you will remain quite unaware of it.
If you believe the holy instant is difficult for you, it is because
you have become the arbiter of what is possible, and remain unwilling
to give place to One Who knows. The
whole belief in orders of difficulty in miracles is centered on
this. Everything God wills is not only possible, but has already
happened. And that is why the past has gone. It never happened in
reality. Only in your minds, which thought it did, is its undoing